I got let go for the first time in my career. In the 13 years I’ve been playing this game, I’ve never been released. I’ve become a free agent plenty of times in the offseason, but I’ve never been let go by a team during the year…or period. When I’ve left teams, it’s been on my own or because my contract was up. This is the first time I’ve actually been brought into the office and told I was being let go.
The rollercoaster ride continues. And the season continues to remain interesting. Now I’m home. Again. Unfortunately this time it’s under different circumstances. I’m between teams and it doesn’t feel like they’re going to be jumping to get me. In my opinion, baseball has a tendency to have a short memory, so nobody cares about the 1.50 ERA I put up in the first couple months. They just look at the 3 1/3 innings I threw in the big leagues. I threw in 10 games for the Braves and threw a total of 3 1/3 innings! That’s the first time I was truly used as a left-handed specialist – and didn’t do terribly at it. But didn’t do well enough for, I guess, their liking. Or they’ve just decided to go younger. I’m not exactly sure. I wasn’t really given a true definition of why I was being let go.
I’ve had my ups and downs so much throughout my career – I’ve been with 10 teams now – so I’ve been able to shake it off. I got pissed off for a day or two, but there was nothing I could do about it. Why sit around and get overly emotional or upset about something when you can’t change it? The only thing I can do now is look forward and see what’s next. So that’s what I’m doing. I’m doing everything I can to stay in shape, keep my arm fresh, and wait for the phone call from whoever needs me next…and I’ll be ready to go.
My agent has gotten a few phone calls from a few teams (Baltimore, Seattle, Milwaukee), who may want to possibly bring me in as a backup in case they need help later on down the road. But it’s kind of funny timing with the All-Star break happening. When it happened, when I officially cleared waivers, there were only two days left before the break. I don’t think anybody is ready to jump at a guy at that time of the year. I’m hoping that at the end of this All-Star break, teams will start thinking about if they need a lefty.
I want to go pitch. I don’t really care where I end up or if I have to go back to Triple-A for a while. I just want to pitch and continue to prove that I’m still god enough to pitch at the Major League level and hopefully put myself in a good situation for next year. But I’d obviously love to spend as much time as I can for the rest of this season in a Major League uniform…wherever that may be.